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It’s beginning to look a lot like Chrimma!  Yup, that’s right: Chrimma!  🙂

This time of year hasn’t been particularly the bomb for me.  I mean I’m thankful and all but the holidays have always carried a certain sadness…longing for the way things used to be.  The excitement I used to feel.  As you grow up, all that fades away.  It’s kind of ironic though.  While in my heart I carry a deep sadness for obvious reasons, this year I’m really hopeful.  It’s a different kind of hope though- a more mature hope.  But still I can’t help but yearn for that childhood innocence I used to have…

But serious up tho, what happened yall?  When did I become an adult?  Who signed off on this shit?  One day I woke up and BAM!  Life as I knew it was different.  I miss the ’80’s…when things were simpler.  My biggest worry was getting all my reading done so I could watch Eureka’s Castle on Nick Jr, or building a fort in the living room made with sheets and pillows and calling it the ‘Jupiter club’ and having my mama or aunt or granddaddy come open the door and mess it all up.  And the holidays was a time when the whole family got together at granddaddy’s house and my aunt would cook and I would help (or at least that’s what I called it), and then after Thanksgiving we’d draw names and life was just, well, good.

I mean, really tho… seems like yesterday I was playing cheerleader with Chuck or having a sleepover down to Kami house or playing Sega over Tee’s or working on our Acids vs. Bases science project with Jennifer.  The Jane Ave. crew…those were the days!

I know yall…I’m just having growing pangs and I’ll be ok.  But serious up tho for realz yall, you can have this grown up being an adult shit.  Life is so hard!  My mama used to always tell me whenever I said that, “It’s hard, but it’s fair.”  I don’t know how much I believe that these days.  I do believe that to whom much is given, much is required.  I’ve been extremely blessed in my life; yes, I have, in spite of.  And I realize that in order to get the things that I really want in life: this PhD, a loving and devoted husband and father to my maximum of 2 kids ;), the project that I’ve been dreaming of starting to help the young people in my home community, to name a few, a price must be paid.  I have to give of myself in order to get, and I don’t mind that.

So, right now while I’m working in these streets for George, being careful about who I let into my life, no matter how hard it may get, and working diligently on bringing my dreams into fruition…I just gotta keep reminding myself that this is an investment into the kind of life that I’ve always wanted for myself.  If I can continue to do this in all aspects of my life, the travailing will be worth it.  It’s hard though when you totally on your own; when mama aint there to tell you it’s gon be ok and ‘friends’ are no where to be found cuz they can’t possibly understand or be bothered.  Loneliness is a part of the human condition yall…but when it’s really just you and Jesus tho…it separates the mens from the boys, or in my case, the womens from the girls.


Molasses Cookies 

So about these cookies tho…yeah they were delicious!  And I found that the longer you refrigerate the dough before baking the better the cookies tasted.


  • 1 stick butter, at room temperature
  • 3/4 c light brown sugar
  • 1/2 c dark brown sugar
  • 1 egg, beaten
  • 1/4 c molasses
  • 2 1/4 c all purpose flour
  • 2 tsp baking soda
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • 1 tsp ginger
  • 1/2 tsp cloves
  • 1/4 tsp salt
  • sugar for decoration

In a large bowl, combine the dry ingredients and whisk together: the flour, baking soda, cinnamon, ginger, cloves, and salt.

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In a separate bowl, cream the butter and the light and dark brown sugar together.  Then add the molasses, then the beaten egg.

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So after that’s all combined, mix in the dry ingredients to the wet mixture in parts until thoroughly incorporated. The dough should look something like this before you’re ready to refrigerate it.  Cover with plastic wrap and refrigerate for at least 3 hours.  Remember, the longer the better!

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Preheat oven to 350°F

Roll spoon fulls of the dough into balls and roll in the sugar to coat the tops.  Place them about an inch apart on an ungreased cookie sheet.  Bake for about 15 mins and allow the cookies to cool on a wire rack.

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Sorry yall, didn’t take a pic of the finished product 😦  But I assure you, they were quite delicious lol.  I’ll update whenever I make these again.