AND I CAN DO WHATEVA I WANT!!!!!!!!!
I just felt like saying that since that’s kinda what I’ve been feeling lately.
Maybe it’s cuz I’m approaching 30, but I swear yall there’s this new found sense of liberation that I feel in terms of my own agency, and I like it!
Sure it’s scary.
Yes I’m nervous.
No I don’t know what’s going to happen next.
And you know what, I really don’t care!
See, through all of the things that I’ve been through in my life, particularly in these past few years, good and bad, it finally hit me. It just dawned on me yall that I’m ok. I mean, I’m not like all good, but I will be, one way or another. Sure I’m very much struggling with a lot of things and I’m even not sure how these things will play out. But I have to resolve to believe that they will work out for the best; for me and everyone else involved.
I was talking to a good sistafriend of mines last night and we were having this discussion. Some women have children prematurely and they are forced to kind of make this turn. Some women still haven’t really come into their own and they are way older than me. Some women never will 0_0 But I think there’s something to be said for the willingness to do the hard work, because it is hard as hell yall, that it takes to really begin to realize your full potential- beyond some superficial level. I’m not speaking of material things or achievements or any other tangible things that you can acquire along life’s journey. But what I’m speaking of is actually being willing to take yourself off of your pedestal and accept the fact that yes, your shit does stink lol! Not only does it stink but it’s not always concealable, so others may start to smell it even when you don’t or try to act like you don’t. It is the willingness to accept accountability and to stop blaming any and everyone for your own unhappiness. Basic self-determination- google that shit yo!
While you may have valid reasons for not owning your own stuff, at what point do you become the master of your own fate and the captain of your own soul? Honestly sometimes I feel like running and hiding. Especially after the things I’ve been through recently and am still going thru. But I want to try to be bold, cuz Mollie aint raise no punk bitches! I don’t feel like being bold all the time and I can’t say that I will either, and that’s ok. However, I feel that in order to be a grown ass woman, I can’t always behave like a wounded little girl, a victim of circumstance and crippled by fear.
This process called life is a hard one and I don’t know if it’s fair or not; Mollie used to always say that it is ‘hard but it’s fair’ and maybe she was right yall. I mean bad shit happens to all of us and yes some of us more than others but I honestly believe you get what you pay for and you have the freedom to choose, which is a blessing in itself. But then again hell she coulda been just blowing smoke up my ass for all my life chial who knows?
Chipotle Turkey Burgers
So this summer a good friend of mine had a cookout over to her house and she made these. I immediately told her that this was the best thing she’d ever did lol!!! So during my near daily pilgrimage to Wegmans, I decided to try and get me a piece so this is my spin on the recipe. I’m sorry I aint take pictures throughout yall hell I just really forgot! I guess I was so happy to be cooking I got caught up lol.
- 1 lb ground turkey
- abt 2 tbp fresh cilantro
- 1 tbsp onion powder
- 1 tbsp garlic powder
- 1 tbsp Mrs. Dash table seasoning
- 1/2 sweet onion
- 1 chipotle chile in adobo sauce
- black pepper
- 1/4 c grated paremsan cheese
- pinch of unseasoned breadcrumbs
So, basically this is probably the easiest recipe I’ve posted. I know I may say that a lot but serious up it is.
In a mini food processor or chopper (or by hand) chop the onion, cilantro and the chipotle pepper until they are finely chopped; the mixture will be like a mush consistency.
In a non-reactive bowl, add the turkey and the spices, cheese and breadcrumbs and mix gently to combine. I like to do this part by hand, wearing a rubber glove of course. Then add in the chipotle mixture and combine until all the ingredients are incorporated into the turkey. Form the mixture into 4 good size patties and grill until done. I used my new table top grill, but you could use a Foreman grill if you choose. You could make these in a skillet but I wouldn’t recommend it.
I wrapped these in Boston bib lettuce, but of course you can eat these on a bun if you want.