For those of you who don’t get the reference…
You know I don’t feel strong. Logically I guess you could consider me a ‘strong’ person, but personally, I don’t feel so strong most of the time.
So why in the hell do alla these bishes wanna pull on meh?!?!?!?!?!?!?! People are a trip yall. Like people are soooo needy and they don’t e n o it. It’s kind of ironic that I’ve been tutoring my social psychology students about self-serving biases and how these can make people do bad things for lack of a better word. Sometimes people do things that are in their own best interest…even if it’s at the expense of someone or something else and they justify these decisions by somehow convincing themselves that they are righteous. People will literally use you up -if you let them.
It’s so frustrating sometimes. The problem with knowing who you are is that other people recognize who you are too. And they tend to be drawn to you. Furthermore, whenever you need to recharge for lack of a better word, you’re rarely afforded the privilege to be able to go to very many other people the way that they’d come to you. *Le sigh!*
But anyway tho… I’ve been feeling mighty down, I’ve been feeling mighty low recently yall. Idk…it’s like I’ve lost my motivation to be great in many aspects of my life. Maybe it’s this prolonged ass winter we seem to be having here in the DMV- it snowed yesterday yall. Yep. It’s March. Supposed to snow this Friday too. But yeah… So maybe I just need a change of scenery? A hobby? A puppy? -nawl I got one of those. What is it? Why lawd, whyyyyyyy???
Or, perhaps I’m entitled to not feel like the best all the time. Hell, I am human (I gotta say it out loud for it to be true lol!) and I just be wondering what am I doing all this for???
But no serious up yall…the problem with being perceived in a certain way and then not living up to that perception is that I end up with moments like these; I’m feeling overwhelmed and most of the people I tell that just tell me to “push through” or “it’ll pass” or some other variation of those passive ass idioms that do me no good in these situations. And all I tend to do is internalize that to mean that I should be able to just “push through” and that “it’ll pass” eventually. And that just makes me put more undue pressure on myself. FUCK THAT!
It’s midterm yall, meaning I got about 7 more weeks of coursework to go. Ever. In life. Aint that crazy?????
Ginger Soy Citrus Marinated Salmon
- 4 tablespoons brown sugar
- 1/4 cup orange juice
- 1 tablespoon honey
- 3 tablespoons dry mustard
- 3 tablespoons soy sauce
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 1 tablespoon finely grated ginger
- 2 tablespoons cilantro
- 4-6 salmon fillets
In a medium saucepan over medium-low heat, combine all of the ingredients so that they’ll come together but do not bring this mixture to a boil. Allow the mixture to cool before spreading on the salmon.
Roast the salmon under a broiler until it’s opaque in color and continue to brush with the glaze while cooking. I like to get good caramelization on the fillets before I take them out. I also like to eat these with green beans or asparagus.